Feelin´ like ol´ Cloud up there - just with the difference that I´m in Austria…and not in some wasteland which looks like fucking Egypt without pyramids…
No, seriously - Wish we could jus´ get inside the car ´n drive to a nearby lake, but none of our friends has time during the week and stuff /=
(Oh, forgot - we also have school till 6 p.m on most of the days..hahaha…hahaha..ha..ha… shit.)
Also not sure if Siren wouldn´t accidentally drown us by diving ways too deep down… uff…
Can´t wait for weekend!
Partying with Anna and Vic, plus might meet up with Alex - if he´s got time.
Monday - finished.
Four days more to come…
I know why I´m tracking the Gackt-tag <3
Fuck, didn´t expect that, but even a fucking moustache looks good on him! <3
and gosh… never watched Sengoku Basara, but I´m honestly considering giving it a try - at least the real-movie. hrhrhrhrhrhrhrhrhrhrhr <3
I mean, he grew a moustache just for it! It has to be awesome! <3 xD
Resonance of Fate.
…still not finished it - even though Zephyr´s trying to level up our crew.
Should give it another try as soon as we´re done with Drakengard <3
It’s a very dark game that lost impact because they censored it so much before putting it into the US market.
Cut from US ver:
- Leonard is a pedophile
- Furiae has sexual desires toward Caim (her brother)
- Arioch lost her womb in her pact and has gone mad, enjoys killing children
While the last two points are still somewhat implied in the US version the fact that Leonard is a pedophile was completely chopped blocked. It really changed his character, the reason behind his guilt, also his relationships with Faerie and Seere (a male child).
Also I believe they down played the fact that Manah was outright abused by her mother and Seere did nothing to help her, they made it seem the mother simply favored Seere over Manah.
… WHAT?! D:
… i mean.. WHAT?!?!?!?!?!?!
We´re currently playing through this game and liwlöahföwilehfÖLIHFEölfh…
No seriously, reached ending 1 and ….our Team consists of Caim, Angelus and Arioch - because I don´t count good, ol´ Verdelett.
…who the fuck is leonart? ; A ;
I mean…he´s in the description of the game, but… how do you even get him?
And.. shit man.
This gives the whole thing a totally new meaning.
Dirge - you may add this game to our “Games where we need to play the original japanese version some day”-list.
►male - 19 years
► non-human alter - resembling a dragon , but just partly.
► flirtatious, always reaching out to people, loves to talk, calm, brave and err.. a manly whore - well, not that /bad/ but ya get the point.
His name comes from the word Dragon - he loves these creatures and lives for them, well… just like Joey did.
Appearance & special facts:
Drake seems to be partly a non-human alter.
He has - just like Chaos - little wings which can grow larger.
They look like bat´s wings and are - of course - on his back.
Sometimes he seems to have also a dragon-like tail, but…not always.
This non-human alter stuff still confuses me. A lot.
Drake is very tall and therefore it took him quit a while to control the body without getting hurt.
He has red, long, spiky hair - bound together.
He´s skinny and lean, has green eyes and a tattoo on his back.
Also, that asshole apparently smokes - and loves alcohol. Oh sweet Satan..errr..gesus.
First time he showed up
… we don´t really know, he just suddenly…was there.
But i think the first sign we got of him, was.. err.. a package of cigarettes lying around.
I guess I don´t have to tell you how Dirge freaked out, as soon as he realized that we…or the body… is now a smoker´s.
His inner place
Mostly he´s trolling around the house, in the near forest, or in a cave which is… near Siren´s - but he also has a room inside our house.
He´s always changing his location often hangs out with Chaos - they get along more or the less, but he isn´t against the rest of the system, like Chaos is.
Hobbies & Interests:
- every book, film or game involving dragons.
- drawing - but just his scaled, clawed friends.
- going out, flirting - … fucking.
-> He´s cool with Chaos - but not as demonic, or against the rest of us.
-> 4th Generation (currently just he and Chaos)
-> Bisexual, but… more interested in girls, I´d say.
-> smokes and knows how to properly deal with embarrassment.
He has no blog and obviously isn´t that interested in blogging.
That´s an old picture he once drew - he said he´s partly ashamed of it, but he´ll show us his next work… he guesses.
Drake isn´t around that often, after all.
Our life had been very short, compared to the lives of other people - and I just feel like writing down the names of all the people we ever loved …
… because I am afraid of forgetting.
Maybe one day I will start fading away and braking apart like Joey did - and even when I start forgetting, I want this post to be here, in order to make myself remember - so here it goes.
We are still crying over the fact that you left us.
No - we don´t understand it - and we never will, unless we talk to you again.
You hurt Joey beyond the point of no return - you even hurt Athame with it, but he could cope.
Lelouche had been very sad and if she ever wakes up again, I am sure she will still miss you - and all the times you made cake together.
Vincent will probably never be able to deal with it - you may have realized, he is like Vincent - … he was the subject and you were his mad scientist.
He will never forget and he paid for his sins by sleeping too, but now he´s awake again - and still hurt.
Even we - Zephyr, Reks and Dirge miss you - we never knew you personally, but we feel Joey´s emotions - and we too can´t describe the hole you left inside our heart.
We could cry day by day - and we miss you so much it fucking hurts - you are cruel.
You are a cruel traitor - we trusted you and you left us alone, making everything so much worse….
… but we still love you.
you just wanted our best , but did it the wrong way…
We love you - and Joey loved you too - even after everything had settled down.
He wanted to kill himself because of you - but he could never be mad or angry at you.
Ga - chan… we are so /sorry/…
… though you´ll always be just “BlackOut” for me - we really do like that name.
i am still sorry we had to leave..and cause you all so much trouble… especially to you.
We miss you horribly - though we try to deny it, but sometimes it just isn´t possible.
We´re still convinced it was a good idea - so many things are happening right now… new alters appearing, lost personalities being found again - Chaos…causing havoc.
I always liked you very much - you just had a very…. kind and nice and loving way of acting around people - or well, us.
you were just natural and yourself - nothing we can expect from everyone, especially not after telling them about us.
Plus - you understood about my eating disorder - and never judged. Never.
Dirge liked you very much, hell - he would have NEVER admitted so, NEVER - but he liked you.
Hehe, i guess that´s the clear evidence he once was a part of Joey - he seems to share his feelings towards you.
We hope you are alright - and maybe, one day - per accident or caused by fate, we will meet again.
… denn man sieht sich immer zweimal im Leben, richtig? . . auch wenn wir uns noch nie gesehen haben… virtuelle bro- fist of doom, und so.
what am I supposed to say now?
It was fun talking to you - we had a great time - and you also understood us.
We could be ourselves - hell, you really accepted everyone of us - and you seemed to really enjoy talking to the different guys - we rarely felt loved like that before.
… and you made me cry - so damn hard, when you fought for us to stay.
I am still so sorry… i wish there would´ve been a different option… we couldn´t find it.
Oh - and dear Zephyr is still talking about you every day.
He misses you - a lot.
Hope cheers him up again, so don´t worry, he´s okay, but still… just saying.
PS: Dirge still doesn´t get how you could possibly think Hope´s scarry.
… oh - and he still has the photo of totoro.
We look at it, from time to time - it is still amusing and yet creepy at the same time <3
There isn´t too much to say about you - I didn´t know you too well, sadly - but from what I´ve heard and experienced… you got your heart at the right place!
… and I hope you are still alive and it turned out good.
We all do.
And we´re still waiting for a call day by day - just in case you´d might really die on us.
… we wouldn´t hesitate - we´d be there in no time.
… sorry, you bought the book just because of Joey and us - I hope you liked it, then there´d ´ve been at least one positive thing in buying it.
… wir werden niemals Benjamin vergessen wie wir ihn durch die Stadt getragen haben <3
Du, Joey - und der Ficcus :>
I guess some ppl are still missing and maybe i will edit them to this list - maybe i won´t.
I love you all.
Maybe we all will see each other again some day?